#LostInOblivion

Shadows In the Mirror

In the mirror, I can see

The eyes of a stranger staring back at me

Soulless, vacant and lost

Searching for the place where all the smiles and happiness were tossed

 

In the darkness sublime, I grope the walls

Looking for the bygone joy, among pitfalls

If only I could pretend

Pushing away realities and making assumptions end

 

I wish I had a heart of stone

With neither memories or emotions to atone

Blissfully ignoring the obvious

Remaining carefree and callous

 

Her face seems familiar

But her eyes are that of a stranger

All I can ask her is a question

Who are you and where did I go?

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#EmotionalCatharsis

Song? “Matlabi (Sooraj Dooba Hai)” from Roy (2015)

Awesome song. I heard it first thing in the morning as soon as I woke up.  I’m completely in sync with it.

State of Mind?  “Confused”

Weather? It’s started to get chilly. The sign of winter onset, cold mornings. But it gets warmer with every hour, the sun blazing in full blast, as if in a desert. Then by the evening it starts getting cooler again. I think Bangalore’s weather has severe PMS.

The world is a very twisted place. You care, you are criticized. You don’t bother, you are criticized. What exactly does the world want?

You come across all kinds of people – human and sub-human. Some bring out the best in you, while some, the worst. A few will stand by you, no matter in what state of mind you are in. There are a few others who would love to see you in trouble.

‘Take it easy’, some say. But this is an attitude not everybody possesses. Some people have the ability to switch off, disconnect and walk away. While some people do a great job of shielding their emotions. (I envy both these types)

Great minds say, ‘follow your heart’. If it were that easy, trust me, this world would have been a different place. To follow one’s heart is a luxury only a few can afford. And that’s a cruel fact of life. In this constant battle of heart and mind, as you undergo an emotional catharsis, I have noticed, a lot of songs begin to make sense.  And losing yourself to the familiar vibes of deafening music becomes your safe haven, a last resort.

I don’t understand when someone says they care and then do nothing about it. I don’t understand what people want. Though I genuinely care, I am labeled as a fake. If I do something about it, I am called a fool or stupid. If I don’t, I am known as someone with a façade.

But then it is indeed a very twisted world.

Oh well!

#DriftingApart

dandelionSearching eyes, peering through the mirage of life

Thoughts like wild torrents tumble, causing a strife

Igniting a spark that pervades the soul

Strengthening the scaffold that makes me whole

 

My mind wanders with nothing to hold

Through dark corridors, that were once cold

Pondering over emotions gathering dust

Memories drown, in the amnesia sea, covered in rust

 

I walk on its shore, with foam kissing my feet

As if begging me to halt, albeit for a beat

I smile at the naivety of the waves, being so nice

They hardly knowing I’ll never compromise

 

A distant lighthouse became my guide

Cajoling me to take my stride

I glanced upon the deep blue sea

Blowing conch shells that greeted me

 

My true essence shown

I keep dancing on my own

Soaring through the wind on a night dark

I, from the world, am slowly drifting apart

 

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